cant imagine..

i cant imagine, how my life would be after married + having a child + as a nurse..

babysit my sisters while my parents when back t0 Julau for this 2 days is very challenging. never experience like this b4. this wasn't the 1st time i babysit my sister but, now the situation was different. i was w0rk in shift and yes it is very tough, after a hectic tired episode in hospital when i went back home there is another things i have to do.. it make me very stress

that y i can't imagine how my life would be when it is the time for me to become a nurse + wife + mum= stress (maybe)

1st salary and..

...only now i know what it feel like having money but it isn't enough.
during student time; having RM100 for a week is really great!. if not enough we just simply request for another amount.

and now when alm0st 2K in hand, oh my gosh. it is not enough! serious not enough. everything u have to pay by yourself, then u have to mnage the money and make sure it is enough til the next pay day waa..wa..

then when u have money in hand sure you want everything.. just now i went shopping with my sibling and rm400 has g0ne, just like that.. what say u hahaha im so afraid my money cant last til end of sept duh!

i tot it will gone,

but.. it is now become unbearable pain. i have to take unpaid sick leave for today cos i know i cant stand this pain later
+..+.. me myself in pain then have to serve others people wh0 is in pain then i will get pain plus..plus..

.SARAWAK.

yes... SARAWAK

it's official result already... my CONVOCATION will be @ sarawak

w0rst thing; will be held @ dewan jubli

what make me really sad is; even 0ur pre-grade they organize it @ riverside majestic hotel and now our graduation day; yes the real GRADUATION day will be held in DJ aka dewan jubli uitm campus swak.. pergh!!

the 0nly best thing when it is in SARAWAK is 'SAVE COST' yes! the 0nly single reas0n make sarawak is the best place for our convocation.

.i wish.

i wish i have a lot of m0ney now; wanna go shopping =(

i wish bb is still here; so i'll have a friend who want to hang out with me =(

:bored mode:

.the bongok day ever.

after a m0nth of dumb and dumber orientation, i have to make sure all the stupid mistakes will be thr0w in bio hazard bin.

yea i really meant it. adapting in the new environment is not an easy thing to do.

serious! i do a l0t of mistake lately; especially when everything seem s0 stress. its really hard to follow the new type of management hurm.. stress! stress! stress!...

it's really affect me, especially the incidence with the surgeon today.. shit! bikin i malu..

.yea.. this realy happen haha.

=)

one of my FB's friends post a status which make me smile for my relationship

♥ spend your life with someone who make you happy not who you have to impress ♥

..most of people out there were in the unsure relationship. they don't know how to ch0ose between what their heart want and what others will talk bout their relationship.break your love one heart with the reason you cant impress people around you is the beginning of fake love.

as smooth as....

harith iskandar head haha.. (remind me of nescafe advertisement)

...and yes; again im writing all the report again today. ++ i follow Dr lee and Dr.s0on round ward alone without my mentor.. and i do rang up Dr so0n to informed bout my patient condition ahak... hepi for myself..

.hands on.

yesterday is the 2nd day i write the report for the whole patients in the ward.
it was grrrrhh... haha made me drowsy the whole nite yet i enjoy it cause it make time running fast..

..and yesterday is the 1st time i hands on for blood taking after 3 month ngeh..ngeh.. and it is success. so proud of myself cieh haha benggong hehe

just wondering if they will bully me again to write report again today..

.empathies.

w0rking shift isn't bad at all. just that i am so paranoid that people fed up to teach me. they didn't show it but i feel it through the way they teach me , also the way they show their face. i am so sori for the blurness of me, it's not what i want. i was trained in the different environment and have been expose to it for three years than suddenly i have to change everything. no people can accept changes and understand it with just 0ne click.


i do mention here right.. during the 1st day sister prema has told me that she want to trained me at ICU. unfortunately that time there was no patients there. yesterday there is code BLUE in A&E (if in gov hospital it's a RED code -meaning someone is in the critical condition) i remember it was 4pm and sister is still in the office. she call me and said if ICU need extra staff u go there; yes i remember that. around 5'20pm people in ICU called and need extra staff. i wanted to go there as sister has inform me b4 but i didn't go. y? bcause there is one staff ni, i know she heard what sister did said to me cos she was there. she instructed me t0 finish all the report and she go there, i was so.. s0.. errghh.. then i heard one of the CA said, u better dont let new people go there later she will terkial-kial. they were talking like they were straightly expert when they were new b4. how can i learn if i never been expose to it =(


that y i said first impression is not an answer for everything. yes the environment is okay, even the staff is ocay actually just that they just another human being. when they know something more then they will look down to the new learners. this shouldn't happen if they have emphaties in themselves just like what they have promise when they want to become a nurse. i am 100% they have been taught bout it eventhough they were trained by others college.

0n shift dy..

waala..

today is the first day i'll work in shift, ngeee excited. hopefully it would b less tired than office hour. working in ward in office hour really damn tired doe.. and yeah.. my toe under the nail started to bleeding again just like b4.. then the ugly nail will come out again huhu..

owh ya, today is the 1st day my friend; shida will report duty.. at last have another friend with me there. hopefully she is in the same ward with me or at least there is someone new with me in the ward. (update) haha she just sms-ing me.she is in the general ward same like me. unfortunately she is at general ward level 3, im at level 3A. lucky her to b there cos it is more organize.

ok la that all, want to cook for lunch and somethings i want to tapau.. =)

.new exprience nge-nurse in the new environment.

huaaaarrrggghhhh... wat a wonderful nap after a week of superb tired without a nap. =)

ok fr0m A-z..

i has report duty at the Kuching specialist hospital (KPJ) last m0nday on the 2nd of august as a staf registered nurse. and the hectic w0rk has start that day. never expect i will start t0 nge-nurse that day. after a short orientation by the HR clerk, i was given an 0T gown as my temporary uniform. she has leave me at the general ward.. luckily there was a new staff trained by KPJ itself with me in the same ward and report duty at the same time. honestly i am not an independent person, and always take time to adapt in the new environment. so far everything is okay except for my heart =( on the first til the third day there is someone accompany me for breakfast, lunch and dinner after work. it was unplanned visit by him. he came for work in the same time i got my first job. but then i was so sad bcos when he went back to miri i cant send him to airport.

ocay.. back to our topic, in this hospital they don't have any 'jururawat masyarakat' but they do have care assistant. they were not been trained theory-lybut as i can see they were trained in the ward. they know a lot of things than me waa.. i still need some time to adapt to this ward. all the things done here is not the same like what i always do in SGH..

als0 they dont have any houseman and medical officer, all they got is only specialist. one of the specialist that i knew is Mr pubalan; the dermatologist. he is from SGH, no wonder he is so bz. so now i am working with specialist.i have to be knowledgeable to work as i heard all the specialist is very fussy. u have to know everything that they asked u to do during ward round. if not they will report you to unit manager the worst is if they report u to general manager. u can be kick out fr0m KPJ anytime. that is the worst..

if in the GH staff nurse incharge will be the one who will write down the report and follow the specialist round ward. if here it is totally different. staff nurse incharge will be the one who will do everything, she will become a runner. and make sure everything is done. there is no schedule for who will b the incharge or runner, they will divide themselves into two group. and here also everyone can write in the case note then we must sign in the end of the report.

and for the ward routine, every observations the care assistant will do.. the staff nurse can focus on others nursing procedure. and admission and discharge will be done by staff nurse, but everything is instant here.we only have to fill in the blank while interview pt including the nursing care plan. everything is there what u have to do is tick in the boxes. the best things is every patient history is confidential. here they dont have to take from A-Z of patient history like what they do in SGH.

when patient discharge the staff nurse has to explain everything especially the medication. so have to know bout all medication. i respect all the staff here. they were knowledgeable.

sometime i do feel like a blacksheep here. well i am the only staff fr0m others University here, while all of them is the staff trained by KPJ. but it is ok, i do expect this b4. life must go on.. keep upgrade own life dont make the small things bcome the great china wall =) .. it is a sour and salt hehe when we were going to work with all girl/women in the same place. women is hardly accept others women sometime heh!.. everything will b ok, i am really sure. even the blacksheep is also the sheep =)

the conclusion is.. i am happy working here =)

ohh.. my blog

..and hell0 bloggie..

waa.. s0 long huh.. hehe sori f0r ignoring u my lovely blog.. im t00 bz lately with my new j0b =) got s0 many things to settle..

i will update s0methings so0n keh..